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My new fluffies that arrived today. Plus me all dressed up ;)
Some of the many reasons I dislike/loathe/despise/detest or just plain dread Valentines Day and keep in mind this is my opinion, you don’t have to read it and you don’t have to try change my outlook on the day either, cuz chances are you wont be able to..
Let’s begin..
- So… we are bored.. therefore we’ll just make a day especially for those who are in LOOOVEEEE… -_- - Let’s see… we’ve got Christmas, Easter, Halloween, Guy Fawkes, St. Patricks Day (for those who celebrate it), Thanksgiving and all the other ‘big’ or even minor annual events in which we spend money on, get jazzed up for, put in time and effort for.. and now look, we’ve got Valentines Day. Yes.. I know.. we’ve ALWAYS had Valentines Day but seriously people.. There’s gotta be a specific day in the year that you decide you’re going to ACTUALLY express your true inner emotions for once? I mean that’s what it’s all about isn’t it? Buying a gift (gifts) and then spending your night expressing your feelings and making your significant other feel special. Come on people… Do we really, truly, actually, seriously need a day where love should be expressed? How about every waking day of our lives! And I know with many couples that isn’t always the case… But believe me I seen this before yo. The day to me just seems pretty pointless when everyday of our lives we can go out and decide that John needs a box of chocolates cuz it might just put a frickin smile on his face. Or Rupert wants to take Stephanie out for a meal because they haven’t done anything remotely special in quite a while… I’m also sure that Valentines Day was not created for a laugh or out of pure boredom but then again that doesn’t stop me from saying that it’s pretty fkin pointless..
- “Oh this is the day I HAVE to buy her a present, yippee…” One word; obligatory.. we all feel SO obliged to buy them a gift.. and if it’s just a card then you’re a cheap, cheapidy cheapskate. Where’s the diamond necklace? The romantic candlelit dinner? The motherfking blooming roses showered in glitter?! That’s right guys, if you don’t go out and buy something (and that something does not include a $2 card complete with your messy handwriting) then expect her to DISAPPOINTED cuz shit she will be. Hell, maybe you’ll be too if you didn’t get anything from her on Valentines Day, depending on how seriously you take this occasion. Once again, obligatory. I’m not saying go out and spend hundreds or even thousands but giving the occasion they’re definitely expecting something good from you..
- He doesn’t mean it.. he’s just supposed to say it today.. Well, maybe he does and maybe you guys have been together long enough to establish your true feelings for each other but think of all the poor ladies out there who are currently being FUCKED AROUND Yeah, that’s right. I said fucked around.. Because I will tell you something now it’s something that happens ALL THE DAMN TIME! So today on Valentines Day she’s expecting me to say something special to her and scene as I’m keeping up the fake “I’m totally into her” act imma tell her today just how much she REALLY means to me *cough* jokes *cough*. Lol.. it’s alot easier than you think to pick at a guy’s brain and actually find out what really goes on in there.. And if he tells you he loves you girl, god forbid that day in the near future where you’re gonna get EXTREMELY hurt, this is playing with your head on a WHOLLLE new level.. Happy Valentines Day dear. I hope you’re not going to be crying into your $8 box of chocolates he so THOUGHTFULLY gave you half way through the day. And remember that word obligatory? Hmmmm… :/
- We’ve just had Christmas for Christ’s sake! I have a receipt in my drawer, it dates back to approximately 1 week before Christmas, it totals to around $500 from one convenient superstore that sells pretty much everything so my shopping was instantly sorted. My family absolutely ADORED their gifts from me.. well some of them anyway.. they loved them so much that they didn’t stop and think and realise that I had gone out of my way and gone suparr mad buying them all gifts (and yes, I figured it was fair to buy for the adults too, they need something to look forward to in the xmas season dontyathink?). It’s funny how some families go completely mental in buying Christmas gifts, and I’m talking more than a total of $500. I’d love to watch them total up their expenses… So what’s this gotta do with Valentines Day you say? Well, think about it husbands and long time boyfriends.. is she gonna want a rose and a box of chocolates or do you think she’ll appreciate a fancy dinner, a $100 box of perfume or a nice evening dress followed by a night on town more? Time to rake out your savings if you’re not rich… Or dump her. :? OR pray she’s not one for high expectations on such a ‘SPECIAL’ occasion, sometimes you’re lucky in that case.
- Well… where’s my boyfriend? Why is everyone around me so ‘un - lonely?’ This doesn’t just apply to people who are outsiders or not - so - attractive or approachable. This applies to each and EVERY single one of you who is currently… single! (and possibly feeling the downside of the single life) = “It’s Feb 14th, I went to the mall today to buy myself some chocolates, it was late in the afternoon and couples had already emerged to spend this special day together sitting on the patio of the surrounding bars/restaurants and cafes, edging close to each other and snuggling. What the fuck am I doing? Walking awkwardly on my own to the bus stop with a plastic bag of motherfucking ferreros. And what are my plans for tonight? Eat them whilst watching “He’s just not that into you”. What a blast! Fantastic!” - Valentines Day truly does spark a lot of jealousy within those who are currently lonely and feeling a little on the miserable side and most of us can just look at those people and be like “Stupid pathetic bitch feeling sorry for herself!”, but what if she’s not exactly blessed with the most attractive body, features or personality? (in a sense that she’s maybe too shy) then we sorta do start to feel a little bit of sympathy right? Or perhaps you could say some people just enjoy rubbing their blissful relationship in other people’s single faces.
- Just my luck… Now this one is on a more personal note. Around the time of Valentines Day or Valentines Day itself I do tend to be one of the ones that doesn’t have plans or somehow ends up on their own. I do buy myself chocolates, but then again I buy chocolate for myself all the fucking time. Valentines Day is my excuse for spending a little extra on fattening goodness. I’ve never even being a kid had a good Valentines Day. I may get constant attention and I may get hit on on a regular basis but that aint no rose addressed to my house complete with a suspenseful piece of paper entitled “your SECRET admirer”. Which then leads me on to say.. JUST TELL ME WHO YOU ARE BITCH! DO YOU SERIOUSLY HAVE HOPES OF US STARTING SOMETHING UP, EVEN IF IT’S JUST CASUAL FUCKING FROM TIME TO TIME!? Let me tell you now ANONYMOUS you aint achieving much by going UNNAMED. But then again if you’re some creepy stalker I’d prefer you did stay anonymous and by creepy stalker I mean the shady dudes I seem to attract in the sketchy clubs I frequent in town.. I am still waiting for a super uber special Valentines Day that will blow me away. And not with fucking candlelit dinners, hotel rooms, violins and violas and diamonds.. no how about a regular dinner with my favorite meal, a few drinks at class A bar and then some nice candles in our bedroom complete with some super hot sex and epic beats in the background.. idk.. I don’t expect much but I’d like to have my mind occupied on that day so that I won’t be so occupied being a total hater.. ya know?
So yup…If I could rewrite the Calendar things may look as normal bar a few days in which I’ve marked a ‘NEW’ annual festivity which wont include soppy bullshit and obligatory means. If you bought my Calendar in a shop you would open it to February and only see (if you’re a Kiwi) Waitangi day and whatever else you have in that month that’s significant and NOT a day starting with ‘V’ and ending with ‘alentines’. The day marks to me complete, utter bullshit.
But then again there is an ‘upside’ to the whole thing.. more parties/events ;)
Keep in mind to that the above experiences or scenarios are not ones in which I myself have experienced, they are just examples to help back up my argument cuz come on, I’ve gotta make a point right?
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After feeling invincible in and out of my dreams and dodging death or destruction, last night changed it all for me. Right now I have the worst luck in my walking life.. barely got a stable job, barely get any love or attention.. you could call me a neglected little lion who’s now moping in the corner. All this could be why I dreamt last night that I was with 3 - 4 girls who were working as assassins, it was their job to kill a man and they did so.. but when they did, they were held in hot pursuit by those who worked alongside this man. They were after these girls but also after me too..
Eventually they found us hiding out in a little apartment, they broke in and we were all in different rooms so they made their way around shooting the others successfully, but every time they came for me (at the time I was down on the floor in the kitchen begging for my life) the gun they used to try kill me kept on jacking up, so they kept trying to fix it so it would shoot. Everytime they failed to get me I felt relieved that yet again I was gonna dodge death. But then eventually this guy comes round the corner and shoots me in the arm (I barely felt it).
I thought he’d leave me alone after that, but he knew I could have survived it so he came back again and I was just waiting to feel the pain in my back (as by this time I had my back to him), he shot me 5 times, and all I could feel was excruciating pain, then eventually I slowly lost conciousness and sank completely to the floor.. that’s when my dream ended.
I believe this dream reflects my current state in my walking life. A lot of fear, pain, anxiety, worry.. and now that I’ve woken up after this dream in a little bit of shock I just hope that now things may start to turn around for me, that I might have a bit more luck in wherever I go. I pray to god for my better day, because right now the way shit is going, it’s gradually getting harder and harder for me to deal with.
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